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morning bright rise

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 05:57:33 GMT

five days, & things are going so well,
i am scared to death.
i am so happy,
i am nervous and depressed.

what will happen now?
now that I've found the light of the window?
will You throw me in darkness?
would You believe me when I tell You,
i would fight it with all my might,
and will put up a fight.

but that doens't give You the right to
test my faith.

please don't tease me,
and give me solid ground.
for the first time in a long time, i want to feel secure.

tell me You really mean it this time.

Who is she?

2-star price

Thu, 29 May 2008 02:57:32 GMT

my internet is on, for the moment.
:]
yay.

well, my birthday gift was da shiz.
technically, it came on a friday, and lasted till midnight,
i felt like cinderella.
too bad i'm still stuck here.
the prince went back for her though, right?

anyway,
the kids graduated.
mikey is my beffie, and he makes me laugh when we recall dorky FF stories.
seriously, who does that?
love that kid though.

AND, yes, i don't have to take the scholarship.
woo.

what a bad night to get the internet on. sorry ms lard.

Who is she?

get in where you fit in

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 01:15:51 GMT

when is anything ever alright?

and yes, it is a nice memory.
but i'm sick of saving a thought that i can only relive
in my mind.
i did enjoy your kisses.

and you,
say something!
SHOUT IT OUT.
tell me,
"NO."
because that is what I'm waiting to hear.
stop playing my mind.

And yes, no, I haven't forgotten you.
How could I?
I miss you.
There.
I have said it a million times,
but everyday,
my other half is still gone.
We are stupid,
just complete me already.

And you!
Hi.
:]

who is she, huh?

bad education

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 16:57:18 GMT

oh yes.

i have found my nectar.

light kisses and grins that won't stop coming.

My heart screams in ecstasy.

Who is she?

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 02:17:50 GMT

I'm 16.

sometimes you just can't hold back the river

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 02:09:29 GMT

sunday i was kind of bored.
so i ran away.
it was alright,
i was real sweaty.
my face was red and the gatorade at the dollar store didn't seem to help.
stupid scooter,
my back still aches.

so, one month.
HUM.
stupid, considering--

my dreams are dying.

who the hell is she?

cryptic words

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 01:26:07 GMT

i don't know how i can be embrassed and elated at the same time.
Embarassment wins, of course,
[of course]
but i have to smile sometime
no one else has ever done this.

the voice in my head screams "fool"
i want to listen, i do listen.
this will go downhill,
this will never work,
this is a disaster waiting to happen.

what happened to my conviction?
why don't i believe what i say?
why am i ignoring the smart voice in my head that says,
"you're such a guillable pawn"?

The time bomb is ticking.

who is she?

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 05:33:55 GMT

yes.
that is my new signature, thanks.
he does have my dream hair.
& i do work best past midnight.
the copix markers are being put to good use.
the cat ranaway.
i keep thinking about him,
and how he proves
nothing good ever lasts.
i've decided, though, to drop that form of thought.
i'm ready to leave everything behind,
and chase selfish dreams
that won't ever come true.
i keep looking at the mirror for hours
and wondering,
why aren't i good enough?

who is she?

boy cries wolf

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 00:35:14 GMT

comedy escapes me.

who is she?

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 19:58:58 GMT

YEAH. I DREW THIS. I KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS.

Thanks to Gerry for uploading it for me.
:]

ALSO, I DREW THE LOVE OF MY LIFE:

DARK SHNEIDER.
<3

I am proud of them.
:B

Yesterday we saw a bangin band at the Fitz but I had to leave in the middle of it coz it was late.
the drummer was also the singer.
How hap is that??
oyah and we saw the kids play too.

These days I keep repeating the same phrase in my head when I find myself falling apart:
I'm strong. I don't need anyone.
It works.

I guess.

Anyways,
ice skating anyone??
:3

Who is she?